Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Last day at home with Chase

I've been trying to prepare myself for this day all summer, and I thought I would handle it okay, but I was SOOOO wrong. I'm going back to work tomorrow for the first time since Chase was born (he's 4 months old) and today has been very emotional. I find myself crying over the smallest little things he's done today....... like I'm not going to see him do them anymore- which is a ridiculous thought. I'm going to miss "morning love" most of all. It's been our special time b/c Ryan has usually already gone to work and it's just Chase and me. It's my favorite time of the day. I'm sure many of you experience it with your kids. It's when I go get him when he first wakes up. You know that look they give you when you first pick them up --like they haven't seen you in days--priceless! And then I cover him with lots of hugs and kisses and we sing "This is the day that the Lord has Made" and laugh, laugh, laugh. Ahhhh! My little munchkin has stolen my heart and I'm going to feel lost without him. I hope I can do this!


Amy Elizabeth Robinson said...

Breakin' my heart. You are gonna do great, though. Each day it will get easier. He will be so excited to see you each day when you walk in the door to pick him up from your mom's.

These pics are so precious. Sweet baby Chase.

Prayin' for you. Love you.

blackmonsinlondon said...

Oh Jessica, that made me sad but you're gonna be fine and more importantly, Chase is going to do great. Just think of the smiles you're gonna get from him when you get home...priceless!! Good luck!

Christin Eschelbach said...

Ohhhhhhh Jess I just went through the very same thing...Still cry sometimes when I pull out of the driveway :( But it does get better. Chase makes me want to have a boy!!! Love ya

Christin Eschelbach said...

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Johnson said...

How is it goin mama?!?!? I hope work and the separation are going okay for you. Lots of hugs and kisses your way!!!